Things change and that's okay.

Hello all my beautiful and handsome readers! I know it's been some time since I have written in here, I know I promised I'd be better at writing and everything, just I've been so busy lately that I just haven't had the time. ANYWAYS~ I hope y'all are all doing well and nooooow it's story time~ haha

Recently, as in beginning last monday, I accepted a job position at the world renown pharmaceutical research company. They are known all around the globe, and I was lucky to be offered a position i their company. It was a major step up from my previous job and so far I know it was a smart career choice for me to have made.

The problem with that is, it changes my plans. I've been talking about moving to Korea next year to almost everyone. I wanted to go in January/February, wanted to see all of my friends, travel a little bit, and then begin working in Korea as an English teacher.  However with this new job, it really is a career. It's in a company that I can grow in, that actually betters people's lives. Maybe not an immediate influence to a single person, but in the long run, the things I'm a part of in the company will affect people later on. And to me, that's something that I love knowing.

Now I know you might be asking, how does getting this job change your plans of moving? Just quit and go move to Korea. However, these days, the way to get a job is through your connections, and that's how I was able to get this job. I don't want to be that person that works and gets hired in this position that I'm sure hundreds of other people would want, and then quit after 5 or 6 months. Not only that, but the person that recommended me to this job, is someone I care a lot about and I don't want his name to be tarnished as being the person that recommended hiring someone for a job that wasn't going to be committed to the job fully. All the resources of training that person (aka me) would've been a waste and a lot of time and effort would have been for nothing. So with that being said, I don't have it in me to just quit a job, that could quite possibly be an amazing career, to go and move to Korea.

It just really sucks though. I'm extremely grateful that I do have this opportunity, just it's hard to not be able to go back. For the past two years, one of the few things that have helped me get through and push past every troubling time, was the idea/plan of moving to Korea. I've dreamt about Korea, I miss Korea so much, and to have friends there as well, I miss them. I want to be there. But, I just can't go yet...and that is truly heartbreaking for me.

The only thing that I can do now, is hope and pray that I will be able to follow my heart and move there soon. Maybe through this company I can transfer and work at the location in Seoul. That's all I can hope for.